My head is so lost in the clouds right now that I'm just waiting for an airplane or something to sever it so it will drop back down to earth.
I started this year with what seemed like enough enthusiasm to keep me motivated throughout the year, but lately I've been getting sidetracked by the things that have kept me behind in the past.
I've been holding on to relationship that never was (or ever will be) for reasons that are pathetic and unhealthy. I can't pull myself away completely because I truly enjoy this persons company and would hate to not have any sort of relationship with them at all. At the same time, if things stay the way they are and I see her with some other guy, I know that I'll be just as hurt as I would if we were an actual couple. This is the sort of high school BS that has been plaguing my thoughts for about a week.
In relation to what I just wrote, I can't think of anything I would like more than to remember what a real kiss felt like sober. Pretty sad, huh?
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